Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way of everlasting. Psalm 139:23,24
“Nearly all the wisdom we possess, that is to say, true and sound wisdom, consists of two parts: the knowledge of God and of ourselves.” John Calvin – The Institutes of Christian Religion
It was easy to give my heart to Christ after He made me His. It has been a little more difficult to get more head knowledge of my Savior because that meant I had to purposely seek this knowledge out with a very intentional approach to knowing more of Him.
So, as I purposely set out to learn more about the God that saved me, through reading and studying His word, I am also learning how to apply what I learn not only to my heart, which comes easy, but my mind as well, not for a facade of outward holiness for my own glory….but a deep and lasting inward holiness for God’s glory alone.
Here is my attempt to apply labels to describe who I am, what this blog is about and why I bother.
Most important label
First of all, I would not have the capacity to think and process theology if God, through His grace and His mercy, had not first interrupted my broken life, when I was deep in the trenches of outward sin, saved me, justified me from the penalty of my sin, gave me the gift of faith, took the scales off my eyes, adopted me into His family and put me on a path of sanctification.
So my first and most important all-encompassing label would be a sinner saved by God’s beautiful grace, making me beloved!!!
My 10 less significant, labels
2) Mother of 4- two adult children out of the home and 2 home school children
4) World people lover.
6) People observer.
7) Real food foodie…or at least I try to be.
8) Part time blogger – as this helps clear my mind when it’s cluttered with thoughts and observations I see in
-others, Christian or not
-culture…or rather….multiculturalism or issues of ethnicity
9) Seminary student at Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary where I am finishing up two masters degrees
In my beginning……
At the age of 33, God gave me life. Then He radically changed my entire person and in that changing gave me new desires for Him. My blatant outward sins no longer had a hold on me, however, I began to realize that the battle was now with my inward sins, the ones that are not easily seen, which are my thoughts, motives, emotions and reactions towards others. I struggle immensely with my thoughts and emotions but scripture tells me that from the very beginning when God saved me, the Holy Spirit began working in me. In conjunction with Bible reading/studying I have been able to see the fruit of sanctification take root in my life and I am deeply thankful to God for teaching me and molding me to be more like His Son, my Redeemer, Christ Jesus. Some days it comes easy. Some days I find it more difficult because I am stubborn. Inevitably, God has his way.
For many years, I was ashamed, disgruntled, frustrated with not only my past, but my current season in life.
However, the last few years, God has been growing me to trust Him…with everything…my past, my present and my future.
With that trust, I have been able to be more open about where I come from, more content about my present and deeply thankful that God continues to sanctify me for His glory and my good and this gives me hope for my future and the future of my children and their children…until Christ returns.
So, my hope is that through getting my thoughts out in the open, I can encourage others to Fight the good fight of the faith and take hold of the eternal life to which we are called” (1 Tim 6:12)
If anyone would like to contact me, for important reasons or no reason in particular, I’d love to hear from you.
I can be reached at email@example.com