Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way of everlasting. Psalm 139:23,24
“Nearly all the wisdom we possess, that is to say, true and sound wisdom, consists of two parts: the knowledge of God and of ourselves.” John Calvin – The Institutes of Christian Religion
It was easy to give my heart to Christ after He made me His. It has been a little more difficult to get more head knowledge of my Savior because that meant I had to purposely seek this knowledge out with a very intentional approach to knowing more of Him.
So, as I purposely set out to learn more about the God that saved me, through reading and studying His word, I am also learning how to apply what I learn not only to my heart, which comes easy, but my mind as well, not for a facade of outward holiness for my own glory….but a deep and lasting inward holiness for God’s glory alone.
Here is my attempt to apply labels to describe who I am, what this blog is about and why I bother.
Most important label
I would not have the capacity to think and process theology if God, through His grace and His mercy, had not first interrupted my broken life, when I was deep in the trenches of outward sin, saved me, justified me from the penalty of my sin, gave me the gift of faith, took the scales off my eyes, adopted me into His family and put me on a path of sanctification.
So my first and most important all-encompassing label would be formerly broken sinner saved by God’s beautiful grace, making me beloved!!!
My 10 less significant, labels
1) I’m a Mexican American woman, wife of Paul,
2) Mother of 4- two adult children out of the home and 2 homeschool children
3) I’m an advocate for people to intently study theology, to think deeply about the things of God and to read scripture with a discerning mind
4) World people lover.
5) Culture analyzer.
6) People observer.
7) Raw Vegan advocate…but more like an 80% raw vegan – 20% cooked vegan….but I also love eggs cooked in coconut oil.
8) City chicken farmer – our family currently raises hens for egg production, feeding them only organic/ non-GMO feed and allowing them to roam our humble but cozy 1-acre plot of land in the city, which gives us super healthy eggs.
9) Part-time blogger – as this helps clear my mind when it’s cluttered with thoughts and observations I see in:
-culture and issues of ethnicity,
which lead me to start Kaleoscope, a resource for Christians of Color, which by the way, have some of the best contributors I know. I get to work and collaborate with two faithful to the faith, discerning editors that encourage me and challenge me simultaneously. This endeavor also led me to co-host Kaleoscope, a podcast where I get to discuss with my fellow editor and blogger Lisa Robinson, the challenges of living the Christian life through the lens of a non-iconic Christian beginning. She blogs over at TheoThoughts and writes way better than I do. Love her writing and her heart immensely.
10) Seminary student – at Midwestern Baptist Theological Seminary where I am finishing up two masters degrees – one in Counseling and one in Theological Studies. I am currently applying to their Ph.D. program in Counseling and hopefully, if God is willing, will start this fall or spring. Many have asked why I feel it necessary to acquire so much higher education. My husband is extremely supportive, even though he does not have a college degree, but the rest of my extended family says they “just don’t get it” (their words). I am the only one in my sibling group, 4 on my mother’s side, 4 on my dad’s side, that has a college degree.
One day I will no longer be a homeschool mom. With my baby girl taking college classes while in high school, I know my son will soon follow. Then what will I do with my life? Higher education is preparing me for the next season of life, once my kiddos no longer need me full time in their lives to school them. I want to be able to contribute to society in a meaningful way that is Christ-honoring and makes the most impact. Right now I feel God is leading me in the direction of serving lower-income single mothers, families, and immigrants/refugees through counseling services merged with the Gospel of Christ.
In my beginning……
At the age of 33, God gave me life. Then He radically changed my entire person, and in that changing, gave me new desires for Him. My blatant outward sins no longer had a hold on me, however, I began to realize that the battle was with my inward sins, the ones that are not easily seen, which are my thoughts, motives, will, emotions and reactions towards others, which included how I saw myself. Even though I struggled immensely with my thoughts and emotions, scripture shows me that from the very beginning, and at the onset of when God saved me, the Holy Spirit works in me.
For many years, I was ashamed, disgruntled, frustrated with not only my past, but my current season in life.
However, the last few years, God has been growing me to trust Him…with my past, my preset, and future. This blog represents my thoughts “on paper”.
If anyone would like to contact me, for important reasons or for no reason in particular, I’d love to hear from you.
I can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org
Thanks for stopping by!